So here I am, still trying to get myself back on track. This is something I really cannot do without the help of God. I do not have the strength to stay true to recovery from food addiction without Him. I find that my focus needs to be on Him and when I lose my focus, I fall back into old habits.
I am doing an online Bible study through Proverbs 31 Ministries: What Happens When Women Say Yes To God. It is a wonderful study. My struggle comes in determining exactly what God wants of me right now. I want to be a girl who says YES! to God, but I confess that it's often hard. My selfishness gets in the way. I look at myself in the mirror and dislike what I see, but then I seem powerless to do something about it.
I have a game plan. For the first four weeks, focus on the couch to 5k running plan. Then after the four weeks, I want to add a workout DVD two times a week. It would look like this: Sunday: rest day, Monday: DVD, Tuesday: running, Wednesday: rest day, Thursday: running, Friday: DVD, Saturday: running.
I was going to start the running this week, but I started homeschooling my kids this week and found myself very tired from adjusting to a new schedule. My plan now is to start running on Sept. 3.
I know I need to address the eating too. I haven't gone totally off kilter, but there are definitely areas where I need to hold fast to. I have developed IBS and there are many foods that really bother me. I am working on figuring out which foods trigger my negative symptoms so that I can make an "avoid these" list. I know that my food addiction trigger foods will be on that list too.
Focus on God. That is my key to success.
