Many questions

Today I am having a day where I am questioning everything....or at least many things. With my 3 month stretch of slow activity in my business, I am starting to wonder if I should let it go and not renew next month. Of course, only half of the women who join Premier keep at it long term. I figured I would be in that group. I have my goals written, but I seem to be in a place where life events are taking over. Yesterday, I had my mammogram and ultrasound to check for breast cancer. Now, I wait for the results. Waiting is the hardest part. I guess part of me feels like my life has been put on hold. It's been that way somewhat since December. Today Pa would have been 66. We would have celebrated his birthday with the kids. He loved his grand babies. My little guy is a ray of sunshine today. He looks at me with his big, blue eyes, and his big smile and he makes me smile too. I guess, I am feeling too many different things today to make any kind of decision. I am finding hard lately to juggle everything. I suppose when you are concerned about test results, life stops flowing as easily.